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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Beating Heart Baby
End of August already. Orientation day on friday, college reps visiting next week and the one after...lots of things to think about right now. Lots of balls that can't be dropped, especially not now. But i'm not thinking about those important things. In fact...often times, those things are the farthest from my mind, which isn't how it should be. No matter how many times I tell myself to get my priorities straight, no matter how many times i try to change my habits and fix things, no matter how many times i'm up too late or not focused or forget something because my mind was somewhere else when it mattered...nothing changes. Every night it's the same thing. And i guess- well, i know i don't care enough to change things. I'm starting to be responsible, I guess...I'm actually waking up now. That's about all of the progress I've made. I suppose i still feel like i've changed over the summer, but...heh. I've said it a million times before. Old habits die hard. Some more than others =P
I've felt really emotional about a couple things recently. Things that used to never bother me are driving me crazy now. What changed? Or perhaps- who changed? I'm fucking up left and right and I don't even care anymore.
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