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Monday, March 25, 2002
I think that maybe today was a day that I'll remember.....or not (try #2)
I really need to change the way I think about things...I can't make up my mind on half of the stuff I think about and everything else is black/white no/yes sort of thinking....and I don't know...but i really am getting tired of the way that my brain works...i want to be able to think well, i want to be healthy, i....i guess maybe i want to fit in somewhere, and I hate to say that, hate to think that but human instinct takes over and longs for some sort of companionship where i don't have to hide something or other....where i don't have to lie, where i don't have to keep anything under the rug, where i don't have to pretend or anything....and where i can just be.....comfy i guess....just to feel like i really really truly belong or something...i'm always too young or too old or too unpopular or too much on the internet or too much believing in something that i have to believe in to keep me sane or too fucking messed up or too damn something or other....and i just want to change myself and manage somehow to get along with other people, and be a normal teenage girl and chat on the phone and do my homework and try and not fuck up my life, and i guess i'm just tired of who i am now and i think i could be so much better and make the people around me and the people that come in contact with me so much happier and feel so much better and i just want to be able to help people without them shunning me for something
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